Dear Friend. (fuck)

Dear Friend.

Fuck.

It’s all I can say

To this very fucking day

Fuck.

One single word written in my drafts for so long

And all I ever wanted was to write you a fucking simple song

When I think about it, it all still feels so wrong

Fuck.

Fuck you heroin

How could you ever fucking affect me

First classmate I felt like didn’t immediately reject me

You were a good man it was truly hurt to lose

Fuck.

Best friend reached out late to tell me the news

Thinking back that day was insane

At work and in pain

Shoving it down and trying to maintain

As orders kept coming

No one to call to clock in

So I sat in silence in the walk in

Fuck

I remember when I first used to jot lyrics then show you in class

You’d spit back silly rhymes that would never quite pass

I never put much stock in a holy hereafter

But late nights I still remember the sound of that laughter

Even though I think heavens pretend

I can’t accept the final breath is your energy’s end

You’ll always be with

Forever

My friend.